A REAL blog.

I felt I needed to like, ACTUALLY blog. Not just type some four paragraph "I'm a depressed emo child" thing.

So, here it is. My REAL blog. Anything new in my life? Not really. So far I am really enjoying my Senior Year. I'll enjoy it a lot more when I am finally back in my Creative Writing class second semester, but so far, I'm enjoying it. I have classes with friends (those few close ones that have yet to dwindle and am hoping won't) and all of my classes are just good. My English teacher has a freaking Irish husband and loves England. She doesn't give us homework and lets us write "journal entires" and they can be as long as we want. She wants to really "think about what we write". It's amazing. I love it. I'm hoping that this will challenge me in my writing and hopefully improve it. That's just part of my awesome English class. More will be coming throughout the semester.

I'm hoping friend drama won't occur this year, or if it does, it will subside quickly. I am hoping to go one school year without it. Senior Year is supposed to be the greatest, and I don't plan on letting anything get in my way. If I loose friends, I guess I'll have to deal, because like I said before, people change. It's almost never when I'm ready for it, but I need to learn that life happens, and it's up to you to make it how you want. As Hannah Montana once said "Life's what you make it, so let's make it rock."

As I am a Senior, I have been thinking about college a lot lately. Honestly, I don't want to go. The reasoning behind that? I don't like the "schooling" process. (Basically, I don't like Math, Science, History, etc.) I want to go to college for writing, and literature. That's it. My mom suggested I combine my two loves and become a "photo journalist." I told her you don't just become a journalist. She told me to take some classes. I would love that job. I really would. I think it would be exciting, adventurous and I would probably get to travel. But what I truly want to be and have wanted to be for a while is an author. I want people to read my words and be affected just like I am when I read a good book. I want all the world to read my words. I don't want to do it for the money or the fame, I want to do it because I have things to say and I want the world to "hear" them. I dream of having a book on the New York Times Best Seller list. Or sitting at a table and having people come to me asking me to sign their copy of my book. MY book. MY words.

I want to be like Jane Austen. How many people has she affected and still continues to affect many, many years after her death? How many people still read Pride and Prejudice and still talk about how they want a Mr. Darcy? How many people could be talking about how they want a Liam O'Gannon (a character in one of my stories) when I'm gone? Yes, I write "romance novels". Are they cheesy? No. Are they sexual and disgusting? No. They're just that, romance. A simple love between a guy and a girl that has ups and downs but works out in the end.

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Another thing I love. Photography. I've been ammaturely snapping shots for a few years now. Anything I find interesting, or anything that I think could be seen in a different point of view. Take a crack in a aged, old building for instance. To one person it could be a crack, to me, it could be a crack that could lead inside a building that hasn't been seen in years, decades, who knows. It could lead to secrets, memories. You never know what anything could lead to. I see photos that other professional photographers take, and they touch me. In a way some things never could. I want to do that. I hope that some day someone would see a photo of mine and be touched. Maybe I could brighten someone's day, make something they're dreading to do, a little easier.

Basically, all I want to do with this life is touch and affect other people. I believe God put me here to do just that. I have been so affected, changed, touched, molded by others I've come across in this life, that I believe that's what I'm supposed to do. Make life a little easier for someone whose got it bad. Lead people away from a dark place and into light.

"For I know the plans I have for you, says the LORD."