How come last week I was happy, excited and anxious for this weekend, and this week I've been crying and wishing this weekend wouldn't come?
Now, I'm not trying to be all emo/depressing, I'm just wanting an answer to my question. How do things change so quickly?
How come last week I felt like I had a group of great group of best friends, and now something has changed and I don't have them anymore? Do I really have to go through loosing my best friends for a third time in my teenage life?
Why is it that I am being proscuted for reacting to someone else's wrongdoings? Why is this person slowly tearing up my friendship with that great group being treated like God? Why isn't she ever called upon when she does things wrong?
I'm not understanding why I feel bad. I didn't do anything wrong except react. That person was the one who did the wrong thing.
Now that this has happened, I feel like I've lost a group of friends, and lost something that made me very happy.
I feel like it's gone, and there's hardly a chance for it coming back unless something massively changes, which it won't.
Don't read this and think I am going into some depression and am gonna start freaking out. I'm not. I'm simply venting. If you do read this, thanks.
Heather
And here is how I am going to start ending my blogs, with a Bible verse pertaining to my blog.
John 13:34
"A new commandment I give unto you, that ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love another."
Wow, sounds like you're having quite a rough time. If talking to the person isn't an option, perhaps the best thing to do is take a step away. Not permanently of course, just temporarily for like a week or two. When my best friend and I had a horrible fight a few years ago (she was accusing me of thinking/doing something I didn't think/do) we didn't speak for a very long time. But you know what, it helped. Time helped. We are back to being best friends again even though we live a good distance apart.
ReplyDeleteChange is the natural order of things. Everything changes with time. Buildings degrade and need repair, cars break down, Neil is now "#6", we loose friends, gain friends, and change ourselves as well. I am not the same person I was at 14, nor am I the same person I was a year ago. Change does not always have to be bad, negative, or everlasting. The time during the change though, not after, is what truly defines who we are.
Sometimes, and this was a difficult thing to learn, we hurt those who are closest to us because we know they will still love us and understand us in the end. Unfortunately, usually the person who is causing the harm and hurt does not realize it until it is too late, or even over. Neither side of such a situation is easy to be on.
Without knowing what's going on, I can't say more than generalizations. However, please know that you are strong, can do anything you set your mind to, and can face down any obstacles that you may encounter. It may not be easy, painless, or without challenge. But know this. Whatever happens in the end you will survive and come out the other end. I'm here for you if you ever need anything. Hang in there chica.
*huggles*